i'm sinking like a stone in the sea.

Read: Drunkard by Neil Steinberg

Walk: Through Asbury Park.

Listen: Brand New - Deja Entendu

Don't: be suprised with what I do.

What are the lives that we choose to lead? I can't sleep right now, it's not because I'm not tired cause Lord knows I could use a solid night. Illegal feel good things are keeping me up. My heart is beating hard, it scares me but the feeling that these things give me make it all worthwhile.

I'm on a road, I don't know where it's going at all. I might have missed my exit a long time ago but I'm staying on it hoping I see the right sign. I can't keep up with this routine anymore, but I can't get away from it. I'm trapped give me the u turn.

I know what I need, I can't get it, it's unreachable.

Just give me something, anything please.

For the past 3 days I've had pizza when I woke up in the morning and that is pretty fucking badass.


The Steve Wilkos show is the most horrendous thing on television, please don't watch it.

"The Souls have taught me how to love the music,
sadly to a generation that's confusing."

12

1. Sailor Jerry's is an amazing alcohol. It is delicious and badass.

2. I made pizza this morning on an English Muffin, I did not realize I spilled a whole mess of grated cheese in the stove burner. Needless to say when my "roommate" used the stove at a later time, it was a melted disaster.

3. Tom and I finally accomplished our Brunch Date in NYC, 13.95 for breakfast and unlimited mimosa's until 4pm = badass. We only drank until 2 and 11 Mimosa's later it was a good day.

4. I went to Red Bank the other night and hung out with Brent and Nick B. Both of them are two close homey's and it is always good times (even though Brent likes Phil Collins)

5. I drink way to much coffee and red bull throughout the day.

6. I bought Season 2 of Carnivale on DVD and it is fantastic. The show is only two seasons long but it is a brilliant show. I wish I had watched it when it was on television.

7. I bought some books at the bookstore today and am pretty stoked to read them.

8. The Dear Hunter - Act III Life and Death is an amazing album

9. I saw the Hangover and it was hilarious, like everyone has been saying.

10. I bought an amazing John Lennon poster (pictured below), but I don't have any room on my walls haha, it might be time for my Shaq poster to come down or maybe the yankees one. =(


11. Cherry italian ice is badass.

12. Don't let your talent go to waste.

FYI

This has been a long time coming, every time I come to the conclusion of what I have to do I sell out and do what I don't want to do. This means.. I keep deciding that I need to not hang out with a lot of people, but then I'm like yea dude I'll go drink or blah blah. It's nothing personal to these people, but we are not on the same page anymore, I've grown apart and don't want to be back in your scene. It was fun times but we are no longer friends please don't invite me to hang out anymore...


Oh and get this album: The Dear Hunter - Act III Life and Death it's phenomenal

this is me being vague

I have a thing in me where loyalty means everything. When I see that getting destroyed I move on. I have been really bummed recently, trying to figure things out. I have some best friends who allow me to see them everyday, and we stick together. But I feel that one has lost it, and I am not okay with ignoring it anymore. It's time I move on, I don't want to, but I have to. I love them to death but I can't do something where I sacrifice alot to have someone pull stunts. It hurts alot, but it's time. I can't keep watching a friend of mine disappear, I have to go.